
At last, I' m done! Done with high school, done with exam , seems to be done with the freedom days without thinking of making money.
Oh welll, an ending of this is always a beginning of that. End of highschool is the start of college. It is always a cycle that you have to go through.
I have been working on college thing for months. I have enough money to go to Peace now. I still work on some other schools to see if I can have better choice. Peace is cool though. It's going to be fun if I end up going there. Leadership major is fun! Graphic design will open a new gate for me. This means that I might not work on interior design, which I really like.
I can give myself some moment to relax [ Although I have relaxed too much and wasted so much time]. I can reward myself some clothes, cosmetic, and an ipod for example. Not many people reward themself. But I do. It is one way to make me more motivated to reach my goal as I am not a born-hard-working person. Never!
I sort of miss him. I really consider this emotional thing seriously. I really think I can have a serious relationship which last for life time. I know he does, too. But what's eating me is that he is so immature. I don't know how to explain it but he is. Sometimes I wonder if I expect too much in a guy. I expect him to understand whatever I am thinking of. I expect him to know how I feel and to BE with me when I need him. It sounds too much. I am a perfectionist! I want everything to be perfect...or at least in standard. I am so much older than my real age. I worry about too many things. I have so many plans that I have not done yet. I have to take care of my family....
I am still young! Sometimes romantic, funny with some weird ideas. I love it when I am like that. I love it when I can make up a story, chatting with Fuong and make her laugh like crazy. I love it when I think that I am creative. I love the feeling of accomplishment.
Anyway, two more weeks in Raleigh is not long! But it is not short either for an eagerness coming back home after 10 months working hard. And after this challange is another one. I know I can do it! I know I do my best.