If only a great sigh would solve all the problems

There have been so many problems that I have not found a perfect solution for all. In fact, there is no such thing as a panacea for everything. I just need to untie each knot, destroy the problem cells and whoops, I'm free.

For some reasons I am typing in English, my second language. And yet, I feel like I am hiding from somebody that might know my mother language and that they might find out about the cruel side of my personality.

I type and type and type, pressing the delete button for many times. I cannot decode myself nor anybody could. And they don't understand. Not that I require somebody to understand me. I just need some times for myself to recover from all the stress that I have. Nobody gives me time.

Is it sad if one day you just coldly say to your best friend “sorry i can't fill in what you need anymore”. It just breaks my heart whenever I think about opening my mouth and say that to my best friend. Honestly, I don't know if I should even call her my best friend anymore. Totally hopeless. Again, no explanation can describe my thoughts and feelings. NONE.

Maybe I am just selfish. I need people to pay attention to me at least the same amount that I spend for them. Simply when I don't get enough, I will just try to rescue myself. Or runaway as you might say.

I used to play this role of being a big girl who could take care of everyone. EVERY single ONE. One day I got really tired of it. I worn my self down for years without realizing it.

just keep things to myself for now. I have just lost my mood of sharing!

College

lai la college stuff. Minh met moi qua roi. Bay h nghi ma ve Vietnam bat dau lai cung so.



Chi kho than bo me minh, lo lang kiem tien de minh di hoc ma cuoi cung ko dat duoc ket qua gi cung buon. Ma sao minh di Tay lan dan the. Cai gi cung kho khan trac tro. Nhieu dua no cu veo mot cai la xong.



Sap thi AP nua chu. Hoc hanh chang ra dau vao dau ca. Neu lan nay ma ko duoc 5/5 coi nhu mat toi $82. Khong vao dai hoc nua la mat toi mot cai oto [ bay h cu phai tinh toan ra vat chat may ra moi so ma co gang len duoc. Nan?? ]



Anh De hua mua tang mot cai ipod 60GB. Them qua nhung lao y trao giai va chi duoc nhan khi da vao duoc dai hoc.. huhu con co 2 thang nua la ve VN roi. Chua xong cai gi ca. May cai plan cua minh cho sot rac het!!!!!

College

lai la college stuff. Minh met moi qua roi. Bay h nghi ma ve Vietnam bat dau lai cung so.



Chi kho than bo me minh, lo lang kiem tien de minh di hoc ma cuoi cung ko dat duoc ket qua gi cung buon. Ma sao minh di Tay lan dan the. Cai gi cung kho khan trac tro. Nhieu dua no cu veo mot cai la xong.



Sap thi AP nua chu. Hoc hanh chang ra dau vao dau ca. Neu lan nay ma ko duoc 5/5 coi nhu mat toi $82. Khong vao dai hoc nua la mat toi mot cai oto [ bay h cu phai tinh toan ra vat chat may ra moi so ma co gang len duoc. Nan?? ]



Anh De hua mua tang mot cai ipod 60GB. Them qua nhung lao y trao giai va chi duoc nhan khi da vao duoc dai hoc.. huhu con co 2 thang nua la ve VN roi. Chua xong cai gi ca. May cai plan cua minh cho sot rac het!!!!!

Dọn phòng

Hôm nay là ngày dọn phòng. Khiếp, cái phòng của mình từ hôm đi MN về chưa thèm cất valy gì cả, để chềnh ềnh giữa nhà. Phải dọn dẹp thôi ko có mấy lần ngã tím chân rồi. Tranh thủ lau mấy cái cửa kính. Bà Lu chẳng chịu lau hộ mình gì cả.Phew!! 2 tiếng dọn phòng cũng ko đến nỗi tồi. Bi h thì "không khí trong lành hẳn"

Lát nữa đi tập thể dục một tẹo. Sring break đúng là tệ hại. Mình chỉ có ăn với ngủ--> gained 3 lbs. Phải tập cho lấy lại form ko thì lại phải mua quần áo mất--> tốn kém quá! Dạo này mình chơi ping pong bắt đầu lên tay. Sướng thật! Chiu khó tập tẹo nữa có khi được vào tuyển (sao mình cứ tự khen mình thế không biết, chắc do lâu ko được ai khen cả!!!)


Yahoo!360 Sunday April 9, 2006 - 04:22pm (EDT)

Entry for April 04, 2006

I am always a heart catcher... All types of hearts.... Is there anyway that I can change my life without being a different person?

Note: Posted on Yahoo!360 Tuesday April 4, 2006 - 11:28pm (EDT)

Men

What is " men"... I used "what is" on purpose... To me, men are something that I hate but I can't live without them... too bad... it's a tragedy of my life

Note: Posted on Yahoo!360 Sunday April 2, 2006 - 02:24pm

Vietnamese film to be screened in US cinemas

VietNamNet Bridge - Vietnamese film Cu va Chim Se Se (The Owl and the Sparrow), which has appeared in nearly 30 film festivals and won several prestigious awards, will hit US cinema screens in April.

The film tells the story of three people who meet by chance in a busy road in Ho Chi Minh City. They are a 10-year-old orphan child, a beautiful stewardess and a zookeeper.

Overseas Vietnamese director Stephen Gauger worked with the Chanh Phuong Film studio and wrote Cu va Chim Se Se to show during the upcoming Lunar New Year Festival.

The film is being released in five major US cities by the First Independent Company.

Red Cross nursery house in Can Tho

se co report som!!! Co cai anh cua em be!! Gia ma tao lon hon vai tuoi thi con be se la con gai tao!!! :((

Peace

I made my decision.





To be honest, it is one of the hardest decisions I have to make in my whole life.





I love Meredith and Peace! Both of them are really nice schools. The only difference is that I spent more time for Meredith than any school else. The more you spend time and get used to something, the more you love it. It is a formular that I can't help... may be YOU can't help it!





I will go to Peace this Fall 2006. Very excited. It is the most weird feeling. One part of my heart is jumping, yelling, dancing for the excitement of being a fresh man. The other one can't stand the idea of giving up! It is called giving up.





I start to make plan to get into college. Peace is small. It is an advantage if I want to get into student government. I can't believe I have that many plans. Plans plans and plans. My best friend doesn't like the word plan. I bet she gets annoyed when I tell her I have my plan and I cannot break my rules. I bet she does. She is more artistic and more free.





I will be back this July to the dusty and freaking hot city, Hanoi. I love Hanoi, but not in Summer time. It is going to be fun though. The first week is for visa. Then my host family come and I will spend my whole next two weeks with them. My school will start on Aug 19th. Not much time at home. I don't even have time to enjoy and hang out with friends. This is probably my last summer that I call SUMMER holiday. From now on, I will work and work, until I have enough money and experience. Hell, I hate the word "money".

I love to eat! I love to cook, too. It is really cool. To me, cooking is an art and my joy is to look at how people love my food. I really care about how you should cook things.



Easy-going in cooking will destroy the food. You need to be really careful in the process of cooking.



I am going to have a dinner for fundraising, actually one way to make money to go to school. 70 people [ probably more than that] will come. And I am the only cook. Well, I am pretty confident about it for some reason. It's nice to have somebody to help you but I cannot tell people what to do. Usually mom is the one who understands my "style". She will be really helpful. But it is getting to the point that I want everything to be exactly like what I plan. I have to do each process like I plan. I cannot stand the way people do stuff not the way it is supposed to be.



The cost for this party is going to be $1000, which is a lot more than I planned. But I hope I can get some money back. Wow, it is 3 ipods .



I really think this is a challange and I can have a lot of experience here. I can learn how to plan, improve my cooking skills and above everything, I will get to know more people. I want to create lots of relationships. Not only because they are great for my career but because I think It is another way to develop a characteristic. I have to learn how to deal with talking to many people at a time. I don't usually talk at the party. I am tired of talking. But I have to because it impacts my life, my family, my future.